been so long, back again

OMG! It has been over a year since I have written on my blog.  My life has been a whirlwind of excitement and changes.  Since last post I have graduated from college, became a Special Education teacher, been on two cruises, got pregnant and had a beautiful baby girl! Kitty is now a big sister to little Zumpkin.  I am currently out of work on maternity leave and I will be making my appearance back to school at the end of October.  I am a little concerned about how I look when I go back.  I hope that I can lose some more weight and fit better into my clothes before I walk through the threshold of education.  I am not worried about the adults talking about me, but the kids.  I am currently stationed at a middle school and those kids are a little harsh with their comments.  They say whatever is on their minds so I need to step my game up.  I got away with some stuff with my style when I was pregnant because I was pregnancy.  They will not let me get away with anything now!!!! I also wanted to start a new blog because I am a first year teacher and wanted to have a place where I could share weekly updates of my interesting adventures with the kids.  This blog will be more of a weekly place of life updates that will not focus too much on my work.  I will try to update each on a weekly basis.  I will leave you with some exciting pictures of the past year and a half.

the good life

Nothing makes me happier than getting the things that I have been working so hard to obtain. Love was without a vehicle for about a year and it was very tough having just one mode of transporation for the both of us. Well, the year ended miraculously with him getting a much better vehicle than he would have hoped for. Nothing can be better than being able to drive to work and knowing that I will not have to wait outside for someone to come and pick me up.

People seem to be going bonkers because v-day is right around the corner. Who really cares???!!! If the person you love does not love you the rest of the year, does it really matter? I for one do not celebrate the dreaded madness, mayhem and foolishness of the "love" day. If someone even gives me a rose I think I will be sick. Although my favortie color is red. I usuallly do get good deals on all the accessories after the day is over. I got a great LOVE bookholder thingy a couple of years ago.

I will be cruising in appromately 2 months for the first time. We have not vacayed in a long time. I think the last time I went on a long vacay was in like 2002. Never again. It is my duty to make sure that I take at least 2 weeks off a year to go somewhere and spend a ridicolous amount of money on food and shoes. Why not? I make good money and I work at least 40 hours a week. Most times more. I deserve to be able to treat me and my family to some rest and relaxation.

P.S. Love thought it would be nice to celebrate the day we got in engaged with an upgraded wedding set. He done gone and took Beyonce's words literally!!! LOL!!!



he is the best!!!!!



back again on the map

Soooooo.....I am back again on the map telling everyone of my lovely times of life. It has been a minute.  Things have happened that have clogged my mind and made it difficult for me to find time for myself.  I got married. Kitty got a nanny. Kitty lost a nanny. Love got a car. It snowed twice this winter when it never snows here. I don't know. Things are going quite crazy and mixed up. It is actually snowing here and I have to go to work. Frozen streets and all. I am praying that people drive safely since most of the city is closed anyway.  Hopefully I will be able to drive the truck so I sit high over the ice and snow :) These are times when I wish I was working from home, but then no benefits so I guess it works out better this way.  Yeah!!! Snow Day!!!! 

ps I deleted my Facebook page. It was getting on my last nerve.

summer breeze, makes me feel fine

Yesterday was Labor Day and it was a very chill day for me and the fam. Love and I played video games most of the morning while the kids watched us. They are so dang loud. My daughter copies everything that my nephew does. It is crazy because it turns into a competition that never ends! My mother and sisters decided to grill out and wanted me to light the coals. Why in the world would they ask me to play with fire I will never know. The middle sister decided to buy Kitty and JJ (the nephew) a water slide to play on. Crazy thing to do when Kitty thinks that anything with water is bath time. She tried to wash her hair in the sprinkler!!! Sometimes I wonder about her and pray that God allows her to be a very smart child when she grows up. I also realized how much I have to lose weight today. I was not happy with my photos and it made me sad. Sad enough to put that second hot dog down, but I did eat that chicken because it was tasty!!! I also did some online shopping, well, online window shopping and the sales were phenomenal. I think I may have to treat myself to somethings if I can reach my fitness goal by October. I will be truly happy for that. Got to get right for that two piece (not speaking about the wing and thigh meal at Wife Saver which I do enjoy with a biscuit!!!).

lighting up that grill and praying the house does not catch on fire!

my daughter loves to stay clean no matter what!

tattoo

I think I want another tattoo.  Actually I think I want 3 more.  I am a little conflicted because I have not really researched what the Bible says about them, but many people have told me that your body is a temple and that you are not suppose to defile your body.  I believe that tattoos are beautiful and they are like earrings and necklaces.  At least that is what I think.  Love is in limbo about my additional tattoo choices and I really do not know what to think at this point.  I will pray about it some more and see if my mind will change my opinion. 

So, the latest episode of Bleach came out on yesterday and I am so mad, but excited! They really left me feeling so drained. I was on the edge of my seat the whole entire time.  I love this show so very, very much.  Something about it just makes me feel so great.  I think I may remove my facebook, but then what if I get famous or something!!!!

Bleach, can't stop watching it!!!

i miss you

i feel like i never see you even though you are right there.
sometimes i feel like screaming. i can't see you.
i try to send you an email or text, but nothing.
i don't know how to figure this out.
it is driving me crazy and i think i will lose my mind.
where are you and where did you go?????!!!!
oh, there you are. i thought i lost you. i love you.
i love you. i love you. don't you know i love you.

makes me want to scream

I sometimes ask myself why is it that I make decisions that I really do not want to make.  Sometimes I think that I am stronger that I really am and that I can deal with it, but then reality strikes and I realize that I can not and that someone probably needs to punch me in the face to wake me up to the reality that I clearly can not see. But then there are those times when I do something and no matter what happens that makes it feel like a bad idea, I still feel peace about it when I go to sleep.  I guess all of this is a mess because I am a little bit of a mess.  I guess that is why sometimes I just want to scream because I am so freaking weird.  I like being weird.  FYI, I really really REALLY need to clean up my room and as soon as I do that I will have pics of my little piece of comfort. 

yummy gummy style

So I am following this girl named Lily's blog called Bleed for Fashion.  I believe that she has great style. She has a unique style where she does whatever she wants and puts things together that some people otherwise would not. I love it.  I used to dress like that back in the day when I was cool. Unfortunately, people talked about me and hurt my feelings. cry cry. But since I have been reading her blog, I think I am going to start back channeling what I feel is my personal sense of style.  Love will not like it so much because he says that my style can be a little "too" much, but what I see in my mind just has to come out and I think I am going to start letting it come out even more. The main thing is that I own my own business right from my little house so I can wear whatever I want to wear and do what I want to do. So there. LOL. Any who, Love got a text one day that cracked him up for like two days.  I will now post the picture that will forever haunt me. Viewer beware!!!!

ohhh my birthday!!!!

I have been out of the loop for awhile because I have been working like a slave dog! I am trying to pay off somethings before I embark on the journey of marriage next year! Yep! We finally set a new better date for the wedding which is November 12, 2011.  I really like the date because it is 11/12/11. That is so freaking neat to me.  Any who, my bday was Thursday, July 8 and Love bought me what I have been wanting for longest freaking time........the Wii Fit Plus!!!! That thing is so awesome.  It has pet stats and baby stats, it calculates your exact weight and bmi, it has games that you love and you burn calories without even thinking that you are. The thing is addictive too.  I can not stay away from it. I am having so much fun and losing weight in the process. Who in the world has fun losing weight? The great thing about it is that it acts as a personal trainer without the extra money! Anyone who has been to the gym knows the aggravation with fighting for the elliptical or waiting for the skinny people to get off of the NordicTrac.  I do not have to go through that anymore!!!! I spend 3 hours at the gym which include 30 minutes looking for a park, 1 hour waiting for people skinner than me to get off the machines, and 30 minutes actually working out.  Now I can workout in the privacy of my own home for as long as I want.  I really think that all gyms should have a fat person priority list.  I mean anyone that may be a little overweight like me needs to have the first crack at the machines.  I am sorry, but those people who are already fit need to wait. Really, we biggies need a chance to get fit too.  Any who, buy the Wii Fit Plus! Nintendo needs to send me a check for the advertisement!!!! LOL!

black and white

I love black and white photos and it seems that Love loves taking photos of me in black and white as well. He has some of me that he got developed that I need to scan and add to my computer. He takes pictures in his spare time which is not that much. We are usually doing something else like playing video games.

to exercise or not to exercise?

I am getting married, but the happiness left me once I stepped into David's Bridal and realized that I could not just try on a dress off the rack and I was going to have to order my dress in a "special" size. What the shannanagins???!!! I have never ever been skinny, but I have never been 600 pounds either. After I had my daughter, I lost a good bit of weight. I guess we were not as activity as I would have wanted to be because now I can not fit into the size I used to be. Okay, if you want to know it was a size 8 which I am far from at this time. Fine. Now I am a size 14. Man. I hate to say it, but those late night Snickers and McDonald's double cheeseburgers did not help me prepare for the wedding dress finding. Any who, because I would like to have the option of trying on as many dresses as I want to see which ones I like best, I have decided to work my little butt off. Well, actually work my stomach off cause I need what little of my butt I have to stay. I got up this morning and went through the ondemand on Comcast for a workout routine I could do as far as cardio. I used to run, but since I stopped my knees hurt really bad when I try now so I am trying to find something low contact, but not low intensity. I found this walking program that is for 45 minutes. I was like okay this should be great. Walking kicked my butt!!!! I was panting and sweating and looking like a fool all over my house!!! Who would have thought walking would almost kill me!!!! It was so intense that I do not know if I will do it again. My eyes even hurt! My eyes! I know I probably will lose all the weight I need to lose and tone up in about a month or two just doing this for like 4 to 5 times a week, but will I live to see myself in a wedding dress when I am done???!!

Welcome to my Story!!!

Hi!!! My name is Asha and I am excited about writing about my life. There are many different things that I love and have strong feelings about and I want to share my opinions with others because I feel like they would help or give a different insight on the topic at hand. Many of my post will be about a lot of different things and not necessarily geared to any particular subject. This blog is about my love of my life and my life's journey. I love everything about my life the good and the bad. There is nothing that we go through life that does not prepare us for the better. I have been through a lot of things and they all have helped to open my eyes and to make me a better person. I have a lot of different views about several different subjects and I am passionate about them all. If you want to here about a wonderful mix of hilarious life stories then here is the place. Thanks for stopping by!!!