i miss you

i feel like i never see you even though you are right there.
sometimes i feel like screaming. i can't see you.
i try to send you an email or text, but nothing.
i don't know how to figure this out.
it is driving me crazy and i think i will lose my mind.
where are you and where did you go?????!!!!
oh, there you are. i thought i lost you. i love you.
i love you. i love you. don't you know i love you.

Family Time!

It has been a minute since I have blogged. I need to get on a schedule, but sometimes I get so preoccupied with other things that I just forget what was on my schedule of things to do. I am still trying to decide if the family is going to be taking a vacation this year. I have so many things to save up for that I do not want to spend money unless really needed, but I really want need a vacation. The whole family needs a vacation with some one on one family time. I am currently in school and if I buckle down and hustle, I will be able to graduate May 2011. That is my ultimate goal right now besides paying some bills that are long overdue. Right now my favorite past time to release the stress is playing video games, working out on the wii, and watching my favorite anime Bleach. I love that show so much. I watch it religiously just as if I would watch Law and Order Criminal Intent.

dog gone silly!!!!!

So a couple of months ago we acquired a family dog.  His name is Mugen Asif.  Before I took the plunge and moved back home with mommie, he was living with me and getting on my last nerves.  He would wake up every morning at 6am for no apparent reason even when I had already taken him out to pee.  Now that he is staying with Love full-time and I have made a bond with him that is so special that I even let him sit in my lap.  If you watch a lot of anime then you know what show Mugen is from!!!

i think i love him more now that i can get sleep

sometimes he likes to show us his special secret things :)

teach me how to dougy????!!!!!

Ok. So I was driving back from dropping off my daughter and my nephew at school and the radio was messing up so I changed it and ran across this song talking about how he was going to teach some girl how to dougy!!! What the mess is that and why would anyone want to learn how to do that? I just feel as though our music selection for young adults is going down hill.  What happen to the appreciation of Jazz or NeoSoul or Classic Hip Hop where people talked about what kind of food they ate and how hot it was outside.  Now music is just full of mess and no one really thinks about how stupid it sounds or how dumb we look as a people listening to the madness, mayhem, and foolishness. I know I will not add to the mess by listening to it or by burning any cds!

I want to go on vacation and I think I will.  It has been so hot this summer that I don't even want to go outside to get the mail.  I knew we were not going anywhere this summer because Kitty does not like heat and she will act a fool if there is no air flowing.  We have decided to take a vacation in December.  That way it is cooler and less expensive.  Hopefully the Wii Fit Plus will get me into shape so that I can get into a two piece and show off for Love!!!

makes me want to scream

I sometimes ask myself why is it that I make decisions that I really do not want to make.  Sometimes I think that I am stronger that I really am and that I can deal with it, but then reality strikes and I realize that I can not and that someone probably needs to punch me in the face to wake me up to the reality that I clearly can not see. But then there are those times when I do something and no matter what happens that makes it feel like a bad idea, I still feel peace about it when I go to sleep.  I guess all of this is a mess because I am a little bit of a mess.  I guess that is why sometimes I just want to scream because I am so freaking weird.  I like being weird.  FYI, I really really REALLY need to clean up my room and as soon as I do that I will have pics of my little piece of comfort. 

move completed!

I finally completed the move. It was not as swift as I thought it would be.  Love helped me and he told me that I need to have a week to prep before any future move.  It was a very messy move.  I will never do that again without going through things before the move. Things are going good though. Mother is not going bonkers and the children are getting along good.  The only thing is that the kids are in the room together and they do not like going to sleep.  Who does?! Anywho, I have my own little room which actually is like having a little studio apt. I have my office area and living room area and on the other side is my bedroom area.  I may take pictures and post them when my room is clean and better organized.  Right now there are freaking clothes everywhere. More to come. More to come.

kitty

Yesterday was Kitty's day of birth.  It was pretty ordinary. Love and I went to church and she went to go play with her cousin at my mom's house.  It was pretty simple.  I don't really think she cared too much because she really does not know what a birthday is since she turned 2.  I did make a major decision and decided to move on back to the homestead. The move will be happening this week.  I am actually pretty darn excited. Let us see how this goes.

sometimes my daughter scares even me!!!