makes me want to scream

I sometimes ask myself why is it that I make decisions that I really do not want to make.  Sometimes I think that I am stronger that I really am and that I can deal with it, but then reality strikes and I realize that I can not and that someone probably needs to punch me in the face to wake me up to the reality that I clearly can not see. But then there are those times when I do something and no matter what happens that makes it feel like a bad idea, I still feel peace about it when I go to sleep.  I guess all of this is a mess because I am a little bit of a mess.  I guess that is why sometimes I just want to scream because I am so freaking weird.  I like being weird.  FYI, I really really REALLY need to clean up my room and as soon as I do that I will have pics of my little piece of comfort. 

move completed!

I finally completed the move. It was not as swift as I thought it would be.  Love helped me and he told me that I need to have a week to prep before any future move.  It was a very messy move.  I will never do that again without going through things before the move. Things are going good though. Mother is not going bonkers and the children are getting along good.  The only thing is that the kids are in the room together and they do not like going to sleep.  Who does?! Anywho, I have my own little room which actually is like having a little studio apt. I have my office area and living room area and on the other side is my bedroom area.  I may take pictures and post them when my room is clean and better organized.  Right now there are freaking clothes everywhere. More to come. More to come.

kitty

Yesterday was Kitty's day of birth.  It was pretty ordinary. Love and I went to church and she went to go play with her cousin at my mom's house.  It was pretty simple.  I don't really think she cared too much because she really does not know what a birthday is since she turned 2.  I did make a major decision and decided to move on back to the homestead. The move will be happening this week.  I am actually pretty darn excited. Let us see how this goes.

sometimes my daughter scares even me!!!

yummy gummy style

So I am following this girl named Lily's blog called Bleed for Fashion.  I believe that she has great style. She has a unique style where she does whatever she wants and puts things together that some people otherwise would not. I love it.  I used to dress like that back in the day when I was cool. Unfortunately, people talked about me and hurt my feelings. cry cry. But since I have been reading her blog, I think I am going to start back channeling what I feel is my personal sense of style.  Love will not like it so much because he says that my style can be a little "too" much, but what I see in my mind just has to come out and I think I am going to start letting it come out even more. The main thing is that I own my own business right from my little house so I can wear whatever I want to wear and do what I want to do. So there. LOL. Any who, Love got a text one day that cracked him up for like two days.  I will now post the picture that will forever haunt me. Viewer beware!!!!

ohhh my birthday!!!!

I have been out of the loop for awhile because I have been working like a slave dog! I am trying to pay off somethings before I embark on the journey of marriage next year! Yep! We finally set a new better date for the wedding which is November 12, 2011.  I really like the date because it is 11/12/11. That is so freaking neat to me.  Any who, my bday was Thursday, July 8 and Love bought me what I have been wanting for longest freaking time........the Wii Fit Plus!!!! That thing is so awesome.  It has pet stats and baby stats, it calculates your exact weight and bmi, it has games that you love and you burn calories without even thinking that you are. The thing is addictive too.  I can not stay away from it. I am having so much fun and losing weight in the process. Who in the world has fun losing weight? The great thing about it is that it acts as a personal trainer without the extra money! Anyone who has been to the gym knows the aggravation with fighting for the elliptical or waiting for the skinny people to get off of the NordicTrac.  I do not have to go through that anymore!!!! I spend 3 hours at the gym which include 30 minutes looking for a park, 1 hour waiting for people skinner than me to get off the machines, and 30 minutes actually working out.  Now I can workout in the privacy of my own home for as long as I want.  I really think that all gyms should have a fat person priority list.  I mean anyone that may be a little overweight like me needs to have the first crack at the machines.  I am sorry, but those people who are already fit need to wait. Really, we biggies need a chance to get fit too.  Any who, buy the Wii Fit Plus! Nintendo needs to send me a check for the advertisement!!!! LOL!